Not what I wanted….

Something really unexpected happened yesterday at work.

Yesterday at work was just another day where Ms E and I went along with our day. Ms E had to leave middle of the day to the cities to get some things done. When she came back I didn’t get to speak to her coz I was in a middle of working on some jobcodes.

When I got back I was exchanging emails with my other counterpart, the big boss walked back to his office requested my boss to his office and then me. I walked over to his office and was going to ask should we wait for Ms. E, he told me to shut the door and take a seat. I was wondering what secret stuff he has to tell us. He started off saying how the company is saving money, the efficiency use of employees, and lay offs. “Sad to say, our department needs to lay off Ms. E.”   Dang, I was so surprised by that sudden announcement. No indications at all, no notice, na-da. I was shocked, that’s all. He then told me and my boss Ms. E’s last day would be and what will happen between now and her last day. I find that the way he handled it was horse-pucky! Totally unprofessional at all.

Our department will drop back to just the three of us like before Ms. E joined the company. Honestly, I’m sadden, very, very sad. I actually cried….after I left the office. Ms. E and I got to be very close…my sidekick, buddy, mentor and most of all, the person God sent to me to hear His words. A very smart lady and so well educated than my…….you know who. I have mentioned it before, I so look up to her for guidance – personally and professionally.

Ms. E’s responsibilities are mainly on project driven and since all these projects have been outsourced, I guess it’s a good time to get rid of her.  No wonder during my review with my boss last month she told me I’m a “valued employee, our department need me and they appreciate” what I do for them.  Now it makes sense why Ms. E has not had her review. 

My boss was quiet the entire time the big boss was talking to us yesterday. As if she didn’t already know about this big drop of a bomb. These two always have closed door conversations. Both these folks cannot be trusted anymore.  They are afraid I might leave now since Ms. E will be leaving. 

I now have to change my frame of mind when it comes to work.  Keep telling myself I have to count my blessings. It’s hard but I will try no doubt.