House and me stuff

The date I want to hear for the longest time….the date for closing with the buyers. It’s now set on April 15. That means we need to move out of the house latest on April 14. DB and I was so hoping the closing would be in May. Apparently the banks prefer it in April so they could settle their taxes, insurance and what not. It’s good to know we have a closing date but I’m not.   The house inspection is scheduled for this coming Monday, 15th.

DB is still hunting for jobs, as long as they are not jobs in sales he is cool….but i think he is just seeking jobs in production/manufacturing. I’m super stress but just try to act ok….in others words I’m putting on a mask. Feeling shitty and emo too coz of our thoughts of sending the dogs to a shelter, giving them away. Which shelter I’m not sure yet but most probably to a shelter with a policy that says NO-KILL. I know of one north of the cities which belongs to one of the church RCIA member. She had told me if I’ve decided to put the dogs away, don’t put them in humane societies. Instead, send them to her no matter how old the dogs are. They make sure the dogs are adopted to good families who will keep the dogs and give them a good home and especially the older ones, they will look for families that will keep them for the rest of the dogs’ life.

So you see lah, if I’m sad or not…like giving away your kids. And a lot of folks I talked to who are not into dogs said they are just dogs…they are animals…they don’t feel anything. NIAMAH…if dogs  don’t feel anything, why then do they wait for their owners by the door when the owners are gone? Why do they have separation anxieties?  I just didn’t want to argue with them. I told them let just say you need to give your child/ren away for some unforseen circumstances, will it break your heart. Deep down I hope they had to do it…but that’s so bad of me to think that way.  I sort of imagine the mothers in China (just an example coz there are tons of babies to little girls for adoption in China) who had to give away their daugthers to the orphanage….really sucks.

For now, we are still hunting for a place out in the boondocks (farm house) and cheap rental so we can keep the dogs and also the other option is apartments that’s when the dogs don’t come in the picture.  On top of all that, the packing, going to work and our daily routine.  I said it a lot of times, life sucks but then I keep thinking of others who are in worse situation than I do, much worse….so I have to keep counting my blessings and God is watching out for us.  We just have to work it out.