- Blogging on my life events & whatever that comes to my mind!
It’s not even 9 p.m. and I’m calling it a night. Wrote a few paid posts as they were due and I’m already feeling I need toothpicks to keep my eyes open. I have to blame it on DB!!!
Why does he have to arouse me last night while I was in deep slumber for, you know what already……sex??? 12:45 a.m. I was sleeping so soundly and next thing I know I was wide awake groping this and that! 
I’m so dead tired right now, I need my sleep.
When DB was in the hospital for alcohol poisoning, I was waiting to speak to the social worker on his case. I told myself I’ll be damn if she didn’t speak to me what they need to do with my husband. All I wanted was for them to reserve a bed for him at a drug rehab, and the social worker has to arrange all these for him, and of course with the green light from the doctor. On the day he discharged from the hospital, he was left no where to go. Apparently, no rehabs wanted him because he was in a very bad condition where they need to work on his PT and OT. When I heard that, I have never felt so helpless in my entire life.
Finally, DB’s sister is done with drug rehab. She was arrested in April during Easter for harassing her family member and attempt to kill, who I am not sure. One of the brother called the cops, and she was sent to the can right away. I know she is an alcoholic and also a druggie. I known about the latter because she told me and SD about it when she came to MN and live with DB and I. Now that she is in rehabilitation, she is totally a changed person. She is reading the bible every day and has gained some weight, too. No wonder my MIL was so happy when she was chatting with DB last night.
I get this question all the time from my friends. DB had asked me several times what would do when he passes away. He wants to know if I prefer to stay on in the US or move back to Malaysia or Singapore. When he asked me initially, it was a surprise to me, I suppose it was because he asked me shortly after we got married. “Don’t tell me he he is gonna die on me.” That came flying through my head. He asked because he wants to make sure that I will be taken care off when he is gone to the land beyond.
I told him I would probably stay here in the US but time will tell if I would prefer to live in my adopted country or move back to my birth country. I told him when I am old and he is long gone, I will live on my own provided that I am still healthy and capable of taking care of myself. However, if worse comes to worse, if I am incapacitated, I will have to check myself in to a care home. In the UK, there is a website call bettercaring.com for all your answers to long term care. It also has a search bar for resident home care or nursing homes in your town/city. There is also a forum where you can get your answers to your questions, or share your thoughts with others.